After what you said
about me being altruistic
and I,
getting a sudden boldness to look at you straight in the eye,
trying not to let my eyes tear

You somehow saw through me
and saw how much those words hurt…
because you and I both knew
that those last words you said to me weren’t true.

I watched
as you looked away suddenly
hit the bushes next to me
sending some leaves up in the air
and yet for some reason
even after all this going on
I still had a strong desire to hold you

“Can I [hold] you?”
I asked
while slowly grabbing your jacket
and leaned in towards you

and I did not
at the very least
expect you to pull me in close
and bury your head in my chest
and start crying the way you did
like a small child

It shocked me
scared me a little even
and I couldn’t help but hug you so tight
I dont think I’ve ever hugged anyone that tight before

and I understand what you said to me
while you let those tears fall
because I finally
finally
saw that sentimental side of you

and it made me realize
how fucking similar

we really are.


—-

I don’t know why
but after that argument last night
we both clicked.

and it was obvious
from the way we hung out today.
At one point when u hugged me,
you pointed out

“See, I love seeing you like this. You’re so happy”

and I couldn’t help but smile and hug you back.